Struggling To Put The Words On The Page…

23 Jun

I hereby apologize for abandoning my blog. I let life get in the way and every day that I was away the harder it was for me to come back.

It is not just my blog I abandoned but also my writing. I struggled trying to write something but the words wouldn’t come. I had ideas but nothing would gel. I worried about too many things I had no control over and I let it keep me from doing the one thing I really wanted to do, write.

I know now that it wasn’t the writing I was avoiding, it was because I have been totally involved in trying to improve my situation with my daytime job. I currently work in a call center. Call centers are open 24/7 so I don’t have a normal work week. I get Saturday and Tuesday off. I have been doing this for 3 1/2 years and I have started to feel as if all I do is work. I finally had both Saturday and Sunday off this weekend because the company had to close the office while they worked on the power in the whole building. It was only two days but because I had that time off all at once, it felt like a vacation.

I have been applying for other jobs in other departments. I had an interview for the most recent one last Monday and am waiting to hear back. if I get it, it will be Monday through Friday.  I came in the week before on my own time to shadow for the job and then I came in again on my own time to interview. I am serious about this change and I hope that it happens. If not I will continue to keep trying. I really am not asking for much, I just want normal.

I had an epiphany and realized that I really can’t control a lot about my day job. I have no real control when it comes to changing jobs other than revising my resume, dressing the part, and convincing the people I interview with that I am the person they need.

I can control my writing. It is the one thing that brings me the most joy and I have been punishing myself by not doing it. I wrote a chapter and a half this weekend on my novel and I made up my mind I would come back to my blog. I really have to finish the novel but I will post something here once a week.

Off to bed. I plan to get up early enough to write before work in the morning. If I can start my day off doing something I really want to do, it makes the rest of the day more bearable.

Hopefully I will get the job and normal weekends will become the norm.

Happy writing…




Posted by on June 23, 2013 in Writing a Novel



6 responses to “Struggling To Put The Words On The Page…

  1. Mary A Writes

    June 24, 2013 at 3:47 pm

    Virginia, I appreciate the struggle. Even for those of us without a full time job, it isn’t always easy to allow ourselves the time to write. Life gets in the way. I am so glad to hear that you have found your way back. Let me know how it is going. Mary Ann


    • virginiagruver

      June 29, 2013 at 11:28 am

      Thanks Mary.


  2. Christy

    June 24, 2013 at 6:29 am

    I know what you mean. As a writer I have two lives. During the week, life tends to get in the way. The weekends are for writing. Let’s keep going 🙂


    • virginiagruver

      June 29, 2013 at 11:29 am

      Thanks Christy. Been reading your stuff. Will get it to you before next meeting.


  3. Ar Miller

    June 23, 2013 at 11:01 pm

    I’m glad you’re back to writing, Virginia! Doing things you enjoy makes the things that seem unbearable, bearable.


    • virginiagruver

      June 29, 2013 at 11:30 am

      Thanks Amy.



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